So- A change in Life’s fortunes... and what do you do about it? Watch your savings dwindle, sell your home at a loss, move to a “functional, comfortable” rental to regroup- and feel relief.
Spend 3 ½ years on the edge, knowing what’s coming is bad, partially amazed it didn’t all disintegrate in six months. Pushing to find answers and not getting any. Driving 60 MPH towards that brick wall, having the brakes work at the very last minute... and looking at that wall only inches from your face.
Feeling like you’re the poster child for “What a shame... can you believe this is happening to them” and “you know.. if I were them I’d have done X and X and it would have been different.”
Slogging through the quagmire of time and using all of your energy to lift each foot out of the muck.
And finally, finally, the shift change occurs, and you’re in a new place/space.
But.... where’s the guidebook on how to filter/process/grieve... and live again? How do you re-assimilate? There was no time to confront and deal before... all energy was focused on survival and denial and solutions not found.
Before it was a black fog.... now it’s milky white, but still a fog.
Spend 3 ½ years on the edge, knowing what’s coming is bad, partially amazed it didn’t all disintegrate in six months. Pushing to find answers and not getting any. Driving 60 MPH towards that brick wall, having the brakes work at the very last minute... and looking at that wall only inches from your face.
Feeling like you’re the poster child for “What a shame... can you believe this is happening to them” and “you know.. if I were them I’d have done X and X and it would have been different.”
Slogging through the quagmire of time and using all of your energy to lift each foot out of the muck.
And finally, finally, the shift change occurs, and you’re in a new place/space.
But.... where’s the guidebook on how to filter/process/grieve... and live again? How do you re-assimilate? There was no time to confront and deal before... all energy was focused on survival and denial and solutions not found.
Before it was a black fog.... now it’s milky white, but still a fog.
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